After the First Miscarriage
The first tests they held
showed two solid pink lines, but now faint, fainter
still. The digital said, simply, no.
It’s true the heart can take breaking like a bone.
This grief that formed like a callus
on their hearts knit the fractures together
hard. A hardened heart doesn’t wipe clean.
They try and try again.
A heart can break more than once, they whisper,
and when one of them sobs softly
while they make love, the other turns away.
Rhythm in the Hours
There was nothing beautiful in the sounds
that first year. Their skin chafed, scratched
at the bellies and thighs like they were trying
to make song. Making love to the melody
of dying crickets, whirs of mayfly wings.
When she woke, she took her temperature, logged
miniscule tenths of a degree changes.
Noon, she’d fish inside herself and inspect
her wet fingers for egg whites, a good stretch.
If there, they’d touch each other to the shrieks
of cicadas, sleep on opposite ends
of the bed. Silence, the ugliest sound.